Sunday, March 15, 2009

It's so hard....

I feel so connected to my kids and when they are upset, I'm upset. I feel it too strongly. I wish I could just be like Bobby and say, "Oh, they'll be fine." I'd kill to have that attitude.

Parker cries whenever he knows he has school the next day. It's even harder tonight because he's still kind of sick, has had a great weekend, and missed a lot of school last week. When I told him he was going to school tomorrow he immediately coughed and said he was sick. Please tell me he will get used to it and I won't have to go through this everyday. I know I have to be tough, but it's so hard. He is my angel and I just love him so much. I want him to always be happy.

I guess I'm living in Lala land if I think that's going to happen.

On a good note, I got some new shirts today. I loooooove them! Also my sister gave me some stuff she didn't want anymore and made Parker a really sweet scrapbook like the one she made Molly. She is so thoughtful that way. He really likes it!

My Mom is sick right now, so Molly and I brought her some soup, a magazine, 7-up, a movie, some peeps, some chocolate eggs and some vienna sasauges. All her favorites! I hope she is all cozy in bed relaxing finally.

Anyways, we finally got a dvd player. We haven't had one since the power surge. We rented a couple movies and we were all so happy to watch them. It's like heaven sitting on the couch with the 3 people I so much!

Everyone have a great day tomorrow.

9 comments:

kristi said...

TC cries about school it is hard! Luckily he is on spring break this week.

Aimee Kieffer, aka "Momzoo" said...

That connected feeling...part of being a mommy...stinks sometimes.

KC's Blog said...

k.c. cries when he knows its time to go to school. he kicks and screams and has tears rolling down his face. i can't help but feel and wonder if the way he's behaving if there is something going on at the school and someone isn't very nice to him. maybe its his way of saying "they arent good to me mom." then i do the unthinkable, i force him to go. i know totally how you feel, i am right there with you. it hurts like hell. its like that everyday with k.c. too. i just feel like i am stuck. he can't verbalize anything so i have to guess alot of the times. why can't things be easier? hugs to you.

Mama Mara said...

I've had the same problem through the years with my older son, Rocky, who is currently having the same reaction as your son, except he's crying about high school. The good news: while I still feel bad for him, I no longer EVER doubt my tough stance when it comes to school. I've seen too many families whose kids were allowed to stay home "just once", then "just for a few days" and finally "just all the time cuz now they're too friggin' scared to go back". Keep it up, Bobbi! Tell yourself everyday that you are doing the right thing for your child.

Mama Mara said...

Oops. Forgot one thing: can your son tell you specifically what he's anxious about? Is it something his teacher can address? Over the years, we've made lots of small changes (e.g. preteaching gym class, having an assistant in art class, taking a sensory break during reading, having a recess buddy, letting him eat lunch in a quiet area) to reduce Rocky's stress, and every one has eliminated at least a few teary nights.

Michelle S. said...

It's hard, but keep going. My son used to do the same and I just wrote a post about him having a fit because I had him stay home!!

Bobbi said...

Thanks everyone for your kind words. I know that Parker's class is great. I know that the teachers are great. I think he just doesn't want to leave his comfy home. There is one boy with autism that makes funny noises, so I know that bothers him. I think it's something he'll just have to get used to though. He tells the teachers to make him stop. He can't tell me really what is bothering him, just that he wants to stay home. He is pretty spoiled at home so I'm sure that is some of it. He also doesn't cry when I leave him, so I know it can't bother him that bad. (As far as I know) Well, I just have to take one day at a time and get all the feedback I can from the teachers. Lucky thing is that I already know them from church and bible studies.

Goldie said...

a child development specialist told me once, "it's not our job to make them happy", it's our job to be a good parent. and that sometimes means doing what is best for them even when they look up at us with tearful puppy dog eyes that rip our heart out. easier said than done, right? hang in there, mom!

Bobbi said...

Thanks everyone for your comments. They help more than you ever know.