I need to vent!

Autism makes life hard! I just need to get it out today! I'm sitting in my house with Parker plugging his ears. He won't go outside because, as usual, someone is mowing their lawn. I get so frustrated! I love him to death, I know it's not his fault, but some days are really hard. It was hot in the van but Parker didn't like the wind on him. He wanted french fries but would only eat the ones without the pointy ends, so he ate about 7 fries out of a medium, which is the only size he wants. I want to rest a little but I know it won't happen. He is constantly getting videos out and laying them all over the house. Trucks are everywhere. He's on edge with Molly. I had a rough day with my Mom. I just want to let it out today! Autism is hard, no matter how much you love your kids. I can't wear a pony tail much because Parker doesn't like them. I can't wear certain night gowns around him. Molly can't have an electric toothbrush. I have to blow dry my hair when Parker isn't home or endure him being afraid. I have to avoid parties and things if I know Parker won't like them. It's hard and I just want to get it out. Sorry you had to listen to my vent.